“Een aangrijpend portret.” VPRO Gids

“Een doordachte en moedige film.” Groene Amsterdammer

“Mijn hart brak in stukjes.” NRC


When she is not here (2023)

When filmmaker Wieke Kapteijns was six years old, his mother passed away. He was left with a silent father, two younger sisters, and a fading memory of his mother. A quarter-century later, he embarks on a journey to find her. Through objects, photos, home videos, and found footage, he not only reconstructs an image of the woman his mother was but also discovers for the first time what he truly missed.


Produced by: Hasse van Nunen & Renko Douze | Een van de jongens
Director: Wieke Kapteijns
Camera: Emo Weemhoff & Wieke Kapteijns
Editing: Augustine Huijsser & Wieke Kapteijns
Sound recording: Koos van der Vaart, Gideon Bijlsma, Jaap Sijben
Sound design: Jacob Oostra
Composer: Christiaan Verbeek
Coach: Alan Berliner
Grading: Petro van Leeuwen
Line producer: Noa Defesche
Data handling: Watse Eisma
Post production: Ruud de Bruyn
Poster: Fay Asselbergs
Editor trailer: Amos Mulder

In collaboration with EOdocs. Supported by Nederlands Filmfonds, NPO Fonds, CoBo Fonds.

Nederlands Film Festival 2023 | official selection Debut competition
Plons International Documentary Festival 2023

Broadcasted on NPO2